擔心

好擔心自己漸漸成為以前最討厭的那種無趣的人

好擔心

有的時候

心理會無來由的湧起一股強烈的孤獨感
來自對於 人生再怎麼樣都將是「一個人」度過 的強烈體會

並不是想逃避 並且也認知到 無可逃避

就是一種 走到頭來 要對人生負責的也就是 自己

有沒有快樂
有沒有成長
有沒有愛與關懷

都是每天每天決定有何行動的自己要去負責

當然也可以什麼都不想的 以忙碌麻痺自己的 過活

可是到頭來 還是忍不住要問自己

這樣活 是你心目中 最希望的活法嗎??

2/14/2010

把這個日子記錄下來


一束粉紅色的鬱金香
一張重複使用的卡片
一只買好許久的戒指


因為知道你不擅表達那類言語所以更要故意鬧你
即使一把眼淚一把鼻涕的


愛好老虎油!!

Didi Benami singing "Terrified"

Lala Lala la la
Mmmmmm mmm
You by the light
Is the greatest find
In a world
Full of wrong
Your the thing thats right
Finally made it
Through the lonely
To the other side

You set it again
My hearts in motion
Every word feels
Like a shooting star
Im at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows
Burning in the dark
And Im in love
And Im terrifed
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life
Life

This could be good
Its already better than that
And nothings worse
Than knowing your holding back
I could be all that you need
If you let me try

You set it again
My hearts in motion
Every word feels
Like a shooting star
Im at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows
Burning in the dark
And Im in love
And Im terrified
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life

I only said it 'cause I mean it
Oh I only mean it
'Couse its true
So dont you tear
What I've been dreaming
'Couse it keeps me up
And holds me close
Whenever Im without you

You set it again
My hearts in motions
Every word feels
Like a shooting star
Im at the edge of my emotions
Watching the shadows
Burning in the dark
And Im in love
And Im terrified
For the first time
And the last time
In my only life
Life, life
In my only life

Travels in 2009

• Apr, 2009: Biltmore
• May, 2009: NYC
• Jun, 2009: Chicago
• Sep, 2009: NYC
• Oct, 2009: LA
  
• Nov, 2009: NYC

去年我飛了5趟，去了3次紐約，因房子裝修在旅館住了一個月(其實前年也是)。